Start of Something New

You may have a fresh start any moment you choose, for this thing that we call ‘failure’ is not the falling down, but the staying down.

– Mary Pickford


Just last week I remember laying on the couch, drifting in and out of sleep to the rhythm of a midnight rain falling against my window. It’s somber melody all too familiar as my eyes were battling to stay closed. Monday morning was quickly approaching and I knew my alarm would be going off before I knew it, alerting me that another seemingly endless work week was almost here.

After graduating college about a year and a half ago with a degree in marketing, I continued working a customer service position hoping for the opportunity to move into something that better aligned with my major. I work for a large financial institution so, with effort, I felt I could work my way up to a new department or even use this experience to find a marketing position with another company.

I submitted applications for months and was met with rejection email after rejection email. I was ready to give up when I met a manager who saw potential in me. We met a few times before he offered me a position with a new group in the company. It wasn’t marketing, but I felt that I would have a better chance to utilize my marketing skills. So after a few short months, I started my new role and now almost 6 months into my job, I felt like I was getting stuck again.

Here I am excelling in yet another role and despite taking small opportunities outside of my core job responsibilities to try and stay in touch with my creative/marketing skills, it still doesn’t seem to be as satisfying. So, last week as I was laying listening to the rain, I couldn’t stop my mind from wandering. In the past, I probably would’ve allowed this feeling to consume me, but, to my surprise, I found this boost of motivation to get up and start applying for more positions. I didn’t want to sink back into feeling hopeless.

I spent the next couple of hours looking for new positions in marketing and earlier this week I finally received positive news. As of today, I’ve had two amazing interviews with a really great local company and am hopefully awaiting for them to call in the next couple weeks letting me know when I can start my new role. Even if I don’t get the job, I still know that I’m headed in the right direction.

So no matter what happens, I’m sticking with a new outlook this year. No more getting down on myself. No more allowing myself to feel or be stuck. I’m chasing my dreams and making the most of what I’m already doing. Failure is not an option for me.

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